Pissed...

I do not know when it started, but i do realized that my temper has been pretty bad recently. I do not know what exactly happened to me, but this is bothering me.

Tinny Winny little things irritates me. It can be as simple as someone being late and not informing me, it can be someone acting cute and crapping away when we are having meetings, it can be someone giving me sloppy work.

Just like today, when paul asked me to pass the picture vba to their friends in my class, because they need help. I was pissed, very pissed. I do not see why i have to give my work, where i spent so much effort and time on it, and paul can just ask me to give it away. I have this notion, if i can do it, and find it, why can't they? are they looking for the easy way out or are they not looking hard enough? But even if they can't find it, simply basing it on my findings it on the internet after intensive search, it just says how shallow their search was. So what justification do i have to give it to them.

In fact, i was not so mad about the other group asking around for it. It's more of the inconsideration of paul. Am i his slave or what? That i have to listen to his bidding. What is he to go around telling people that i know it and i will send to them, without consulting me. What's more to even give my MSN address away. Is there any form of respect at all? When Paul apologises, i was kinda appeased. But when i see ping's mail asking me to send to kelvin (or whatever his name is), it blew me off. There's no explanation or whatsoever, why i should give it to them? Not even "will you mind". So again, am i their slave?

This is my work, not theirs. My effort, not theirs. What have they done with regards to this? I only say that i will help my group members, have i ever mention that this is free to circulate around. I even have to employ my boyfriend's help, ask him to read up vba for me. What for? To give it away to someone else? Why do i work so hard for? I starting to doubt. Should i even work hard. I have always been the one working hard, but who claims the credit? Not me. I doubt people will even acknowledge my effort, as compared to theirs. When they get the grades, they will just go about how good they are... So why am i working my arse off for people?

Back to the issue, if they were to ask me, there may still be a possibility of me giving it to them, especially if they were my friend. But do i know them? I do not. They sit behind me, have they ever talk to me? No. I do not even know what kind of person they are? There's no expectation at all that i should give it to them. We may not even be aquaintance. So what the fuck.

You guys just pissed me off again... (i think this is valid)

I do not care if anyone says i'm selfish. This is my boyfriend and my work, and i have control over it. No one can ask me to do anything, because this is mine. It belongs to me and my boyfriend. Not them.

Boohoohoo.. I'm so sick..

Well, the title says everything!!!

I'm so sick!!! Not only am i sick of school, but my body is showing these signs explicitly...
Boohoohoo...
i'm now staring at 4 packets of medicine!! Boohoohoo... I hate to take medicines....
And now... it's just not the right time to fall sick... If it's just slight minor illness, it's fine... But... I'm down with fever, sore throat, cough, runny nose, blocked nose (all these are on and off - it's so irritating) WTH!!! I can't even sleep well at night... Either I'm too hot or I'm too cold!! Why is there nothing in the middle...
Worse till, i am feeling faint and weak.. Even when i'm writing this, my fingers are wobbling... my eye sight is blurred.. WTH.... Boohoohoo....
Tomorrow got marketing meeting, next week got cat presentation and IF presentation, and this friday is my marketing quiz... Boohoohoo...

I want to get well again....

I miss my boyfriend... (even though i just met him... )

Reflections....

Before i start on the post, do not fret, i am not a deeply religious fanatic. but A christian nevertheless...

Done a bit of reflection yesterday, when complaining to zhiwei about some issues at work. That is when i noticed how complacent i have become. A bit of a bitch. Is "a bit" an understatement? Well, i'm totally unsure. Perhaps slightly self-centred too. Oh manz...

Just when I was in the midst of reflection, God seemed to know exactly what i needed...
(just happen to chance upon this in the Bible)

"For your father knows the things you have need of before you ask him." - Matthew 6:8

Perhaps zhiwei was one of the gifts that Lord sent to me, as his words were indeed enlightening.

But the true enlightment came when i flipped through my bible, and saw a few highlighted phrases in it. Well, i had no idea what make me take the bible out. Furthermore, for those few highlighted phrases, it answered my questions :

"Give to him who asks you, and from him who want to borrow from you do not turn away" - Matthew 5:42

"Love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you" - Matthew 5:44

and the most important of all :

"Judge not, that you be not judged. For with what judgment you judge, you will be judged; and with same measure you use, it will be measured back to you.

"And why do you look at the speck in your brother's eye, but do not consider the plank in your own eye?

"Or how can you say to your brother, 'let me remove the speck out of your eye'; and look, a plank is in your own eye?

"Hypocrite! First remove the plank from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck out of your brother's eye.
-Matthew 7:1 - 7:5

Well, i just thought of sharing with whoever read this post. If it helps answer your question too, I will be most glad...

I'm in a good Mood Today!!! heehee

I'm back from movies!! Big Momma 2 is so freaking funny, and way above my expectations!!! I love the show!!!! "Everyone call me Big Momma..." haahaa... Big Momma can dance... Haha...

So what's up next... Date Movie? Nanny McPhee? or the Shaggy Dog? hmmm... But do i have the time!!!??? Why are all the good movies coming out at this point in time? Stupid Cinemas!!! At least wait for Week 16 mah!!! Stupid Cinema Stupid Cinema!! Shall tie them up to a tree ask my lamma to slurp them with its long long tongue...

NLB is fast!! The excel book i received is now ready for collection! Fabulous. I'm just planning to start on my CAT project. Gonna seek a lot of help from my Dar... Dar.. you must help me!!!! Ok??

Anyway, since half of day is stuck with SMU, let's talk about my day in school. Finally Finally, the Marketing project is productive today. Too bad i have to leave early. If not, we may have covered more things... But i'm satisfied!!!

Keep up the good work, pals... heehee...

Movies Movies!!!

I'm gonna watch a movie today!!! Yeah Yeah.. Finally after 3 weeks of hectic life...
And guess what... there's so many movies to watch...
Which one should i choose?? hmmm...

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